The other day I forgot to wear my apple watch.
I’ve lived 27 years of my life without an apple watch, so putting it on first thing in the morning isn’t always second nature, especially when I’m working from home. Let’s be real, there are days when I don’t even get out of my jammies. There are days where I don’t want to think about movement rings, calories, or hours standing.
I don’t think about them until I put my watch on the next day. I always get a little notification that I should “make it happen”.
Honestly, it really ticks me off.
It ticks me off because I hate feeling judged by my watch. Doesn’t my watch know that even though it’s not on my wrist I did a 30 minute yoga session? Doesn’t my watch know that I had to make several trips to my storage unit where I lifted very heavy boxes of books? Doesn’t it know that I walked over 2 miles to pick up food instead of driving? I try to explain to it how “good” I’ve been — it just wasn’t watching me.
When I see “make it happen” it makes me feel like my active lifestyle doesn’t count unless it’s documented.
But is that reality? Is it true that I’m not an active “healthy” person unless I wear my watch all day?
You know the answer. Wearing some kind of fitness watch doesn’t make you a healthy person. My apple watch is a piece of metal with some microchips in it that keeps track of my heartbeat and makes calorie calculations based on that heart rate. It doesn’t know the way my body moves, or how I take care of it, outside of those tiny little numbers. It’s just a way I tell myself I’m “being accountable” for my health.
There are a lot of behaviors we, as a culture, promote in the name of accountability. We track miles, minutes, hours, days to prove that we’re healthy humans. We participate in online communities, we post on social media, we make it known to the world that we are WORKING OUT. All in the name of not wanting to be judged, or not wanting to judge ourselves.
So, I find myself asking — how can I balance between exercising to the best of my ability and being non-judgmental about my workouts? It doesn’t sound paradoxical, but it feels it.
My suggestion is, encourage yourself to set goals that aren’t numbers related. Chase a feeling. Focus on the beautiful things you see on your run. Focus on your breathing and the way a workout makes your anxiety melt.
I started to do this with running. I’ve always told myself that I’m not a runner. I hate running. Even if I tried, I’d suck at it. But, with all my favorite workout spots closed indefinitely, I wanted to try something new.
I’ll admit, I completed those first few runs to close my apple watch rings. As soon as I saw the red and green ring close I was checked out. But after a couple of runs, and realizing how toxic this mentality is, I was able to set non-numbers related goals. I ran to get my prescription at CVS. I ran to go see what farmer’s market is open. I use running as a method of transportation and if I see something beautiful along the way I can stop and take a quick picture of it.
Now, when I check my watch at the end of the day, those little rings remind me of all the memories I’ve made, rather than the calories I’ve burned. It’s not a perfect relationship but I’m working on it and that’s all I need.
I’m just like you. My life can be hectic and cooking, cleaning and getting that workout in are sometimes the last thing on my mind. But, I’m here to share my tips and tricks on how to make adulting a little more enjoyable.